Bailey

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I have faith in the inherent beauty of people and that we have the right to be our best, true selves.

It happened over 40 years ago when I was in college.

I was walking home from school when three men approached me. They were coming up on me fast. I turned to face them and decided to confront them, mostly because I suck at running. But they started circling and then reaching for me. I remember not waiting to be attacked… I became the aggressor.

I remember fighting with my brothers when I was young, I knew I had to protect myself, and I ended up hurting one of them as he lunged. But that’s the last thing I remember.

I woke up later in the hospital. I had apparently been beaten up pretty badly and I had a few broken things, cuts, and now, scars. Luckily, I wasn’t conscious for most of the attack, so I don’t have a whole lot of the horrible memories. It was more of a fight-or-flight response for me (thank you my brothers and neighbor boys), and I fought because that’s all I know.

What hurts most about it is that I was attacked for things I am – a woman and clearly, a lesbian.  I was attacked for what I inherently am in my soul and I’ll never be able to fully understand that.

But I’ve found out that I can still give back and help others with my experiences. If I can give someone the strength and hope to keep pushing forward, the reassurance that he or she is going to be okay, then it’s worth every memory, writing, or speech about it.

Despite what I’ve been through, I see the world as such a beautiful place. We can’t hate everything because some people are evil and sick. And mercy, some people are super uber sickos.

I have faith in the inherent beauty of people and that we have the right to be our best, true selves.

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